a reading 路 people-pleasing
you do not owe anyone an apology for existing
for the one who says sorry for taking up space.
sorry. for the noise, for the opinion, for taking too long, for being too much and not quite enough all at once. sorry for needing something. the word arrives before you have even done anything wrong.
you learned to shrink because small was safe, because a person who takes up no room cannot be a burden. but you were never a burden. you were a child who decided love came with conditions, and the condition was: do not be a bother.
lavender does not apologise for its scent. it is calm that asks no permission, softness that fills a whole field and calls it ordinary.
there is a quiet swap waiting for you: sorry becomes thank you. sorry i took your time becomes thank you for the time. it is the same politeness, but it stops charging you rent for being here.
the next time a sorry rises for simply existing, try trading it for a thank you, and notice you are still allowed in the room. your voice is allowed to arrive in places it used to avoid. daisy will hold the space while you practise.
this is the lavender's reading
in full bloom, the apologiser becomes the champion. take the bloom quiz to see if the lavender is yours, or plant it in daisy and let her hold the thread with you.