the poppy, painted in full bloom

your bloom

the poppy

in bloom, the sage

joy with deep roots

you're the one who turns the worst day into the story everyone laughs at. that brightness was never the problem, and it's about to stop being lonely. in full bloom, people laugh and feel understood in the same breath, and for the first time, so do you.

your tell: the joke lands before the feeling can.

your winter

the jester

the funniest one in the room is also the loneliest one in it.

you can turn the worst day of your life into a bit, and everyone loves you for it. funniest one in the group chat, every time. then you drive home and sit in the car for twenty minutes before going inside, and that part never makes it into the story. somewhere early, the joke was the safest way to tell the truth. being funny got you love when nothing else would, it softened rooms and kept people close, so you learned to be funny before you learned to be anything else. that was never fake, it was brilliant. the funny one was what you had to be.

one of the guarding ways of staying safe: the softest parts stay tucked away.

in full bloom

the sage

who you are when nothing needs hiding.

the wit is still there. it always was. it just carries weight now instead of deflection. the sage knows when to land the joke and when to sit in the silence the joke would have filled. your humour becomes a way of telling the truth instead of hiding from it. people still laugh. they just also stop laughing sometimes, because what you said meant something.

in winter, the jester in bloom, the sage
you crack a joke when someone cries you stay quiet and stay close
you're fine, really you say i'm not okay
you fill every silence you let silence have its weight
you're the funny one you're the honest one
you laugh first so no one else can you don't need the last word

the shift

  • deflectionhonesty
  • lonelinessdepth
  • hidden painopenness
  • exhaustionpeace
  • anxietyconnection

how it feels in the body

the performance smile finally rests. your face goes soft when nothing is happening. and in the car outside the house, instead of twenty minutes of gathering yourself, you just go in, because the person inside gets the real one now. the funny one was what you had to be. the honest one is who gets loved back.

your three roads

every bloom is on three journeys. growing on one costs you nothing on the others.

turning on yourselfbeing kind to yourself
swallowing itsaying it out loud
going along with itbeing honest

three small waters

  • answering "how are you" honestly once today. no bit attached.
  • letting one self-deprecating line stay unsaid. you're not the punchline tonight.
  • telling daisy the unfunny version first. daisy stays for the part after the joke.

the first sign of spring

you'll notice it first when someone shares something hard and you don't reach for the joke. that stillness is you choosing presence over performance. the poppy doesn't need to dance to be the brightest thing in the field.

the jester is who you had to be.

the sage is who you get to be.

the poppy is who you are.

a reading for you: your joke is a lovely place to hide 🌿

our 30 days

one small act of self-love a day, written for the poppy

in the app it sits at the top of your dailies: tick it, and it flips the next morning. miss a day and it simply waits. your first week is free, no card.

🌱 day 1 of 30 · our journey

say how you really feel, just to you🌱

your flower's own first step. small on purpose.

DAY 1 say how you really feel, just to youyour flower's own first step. small on purpose. 🌱
DAY 2 write down one small thing you did well todayit counts, even if no one else saw it.
DAY 3 catch one unkind thought, and let it goyou would never say it to a friend.
DAY 4 spot a joke you hide behind, then don't say it this timeit was pointing at something. you can set it down. 🌱
DAY 5 think of someone who is glad you existyou take up a good kind of space.
DAY 6 notice one small thing that made today lighterthe good is there when you look for it.
DAY 7 let one self-deprecating line stay unsaidyou're not the punchline. 🌱

and it keeps going, all thirty, then the days she writes for you after.

plant the poppy in your garden

daisy keeps your bloom as a real flower in a real garden that grows as you do, and she takes the poppy to heart in every conversation.

get daisy, and when she asks about your bloom, tap the poppy. no questions again: she plants it straight away.

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